Why is it that nothing ever changes?

Why is it that every semester I don’t have enough money? Is it possible that ACU doesn’t know what they’re talking about when they say they’ll help you out? Is it possible the Financial Aid department are just a bunch of lying crocks? Hmm, sounds about right…

I still don’t have enough money to register for classes and if I don’t get that AND the rest of my account paid off before January I can’t come back. Who’d have thought that someone who’s trying her hardest to get through college would get a little assistance but no. Every open door I see slams in my face before I can walk through it. And while I’m skinny, trying to fit through the open windows isn’t highly advised… I’m relying on God to take care of this. Honestly, I am. I have to rely on him to take care of it since I obviously can’t on my own… Thanksgiving Break, you’re still too far away.

Up side? I’ll be ready to hit the road in about 25 1/2 hours and I can see my family and friends back home. Too bad I have to write a ten page paper and a 3 page paper over break… Who thought that was a smart idea? Oh yeah, I still go to ACU, why would I ask that? Apparently teachers and administrators don’t know how to give their students a break…

Sincerely (unhappy),
-Bee-

Brittany, That’s Me!

Mhmm, and I’m ashamed to say I really do suck at commitment, haha. I fear for the day I get married, honestly. I can’t be faithful to a simple blog and YouTube channel, that can’t be a good prediction for my future. :P So I was reading a friend’s blog and he decided to do a 100 days blogging challenge where he blogs every day for 100 days, he’s on day 12 and going strong. Now, I’m not going to do that by any means, but maybe since I know more people blogging now I’ll get back in the swing of things? I can’t promise anything though, as my last posts have been filled with a bunch of false hopes and empty promises. =/

In one of his posts he talks about an amazing game called Waterball and has some videos, so I went through my files to find a video of my Youth Group playing water ball back in Summer of 2008. It’s not nearly as intense as the videos he posted, but it’s still pretty good. :] If you don’t know what Waterball is, you should really come out from under the rock that’s sheltering you. It’s only one of THE best and, undoubtedly, most dangerous sports. Rugby doesn’t even come close to the thrill that is Waterball. I love playing it, but because I’m so small I tend to get hurt a lot so in this vid you’re about to see I’m the one filming, haha. (I cannot get the video to work in the actually blog, so you’ll have to click on the link, sorry!)

Here’s the wonderful Waterball!

Now go over to the Blog Roll to the right and click on “Brooks’ Blog” to read and follow his blogging challenge. :D (Maybe this’ll bring you a couple more readers, haha)

For the few people who try to read my stuff,
-Bee-

Start to a New Year

I cannot express how glad I am to be back in Abilene, to be back at school, to be with the boyfriend and my ACU Family out here once again. I’ve missed it all so much. I’m already overwhelmed with homwork and it’s only the end of the first week, but that’s okay, I’d prefer it this way as opposed to a super easy, waste of money! I hope everybody’s summers wrapped up well, mine sure did. I did a lot of shopping and had a lot of fun with my birthday. A lot of the plans I mention in the last post didn’t end up happening, so that was crappy, but it’s okay, now I’m making up for it. :P

I love you guys so much and I promise I’ll get back in the swing of things with the blogging. :P In the mean time, I’ve posted some YouTube vids lately and if you’d like to check those out in addition to this, GO FOR IT!!! Bee Vee Studios

Also, follow me on Twitter, I’m ALWAYS updating that, so that’ll be a great way to know what’s going on in my life in a simple format. :D Bee’s Twitter

LOVE YOU GUYS!!!

-Bee-

Umm… Sorry?

Has it seriously been 9 months since I last updated? Oh, goodness! I don’t know what to blog about, but I felt I needed to since it had been so long. Since the last post I’ve gotten a new boyfriend, finished my first year of college, changed my major 3 times, got straight A’s for the first time since that one fluke back in 3rd grade, got on the DEAN’S LIST, and then did absolutely nothing for the past 2 and 1/2 months. =/

But I’m back and I’ll try my hardest to stick to my commitment to this blog. I feel bad, I’ve written a lot of good stuff in all my Facebook notes but I just failed to post them over here, as well. Should I go ahead and post those? For those of you that actually read this, however few there are, I’m curious, I have 2 or 3 really good posts on my Facebook that I could copy and paste over here if you’d like to read them. Just leave me a comment and let me know.

I hope you summers have been going well, the fun of my summer starts tomorrow! My boyfriend will be here from tomorrow (July 31) to next Wednesday (Aug. 5). Next Wednesday is also our 9 month anniversary so it’s one of those “3 month mile markers” so we’re probably gonna do something special before he leaves to go back home. During the time he’s here, on Saturday (Aug. 1), my family is having a Lake Day out at Lake Lewisville as a sort of family get together/birthday bash for moi, which the boyfriend and the bestie will go to with me. And then, not exactly sure on the specific dates yet, but I’m gonna say the following Sunday (Aug. 9) to that next Tuesday or Wednesday (Aug. 11/12) my best friend, Kaley, and I (and possibly our other friend from church, Mary) will be road trippin’ it to Carlsbad, New Mexico for a few days because we wanna get outta Texas for a while and I’ve never been to Carlsbad Caverns so I thought it would be a great idea. And then Aug. 12 and 13 are the peak days in the Perseid Meteor Shower, which if you’re not familiar with is one of the best meteor showers that happens every year. I’ve been trying to catch it for the last two years and haven’t so I’m hoping we’ll be able to go somewhere this year that isn’t strangled by city lights as much as the DFW metroplex is. Then I’ll start packing to go back to school, which I am so psyched about because I miss it a lot, along with all my friends! And Aug. 17 is my 19th birthday, which is very exciting, my last year of “adolescence,” haha. Whatevah! :P And then Aug. 22 I move back to Abilene for school and get to live in the SOPHOMORE DORM!!!! :D This year is gonna be awesome, I just know it. It’ll be tough, but I’m gonna kick some butt, haha.

Do any of you readers have any big, fun plans coming up you’d like to share? Lemme know about them, exciting news is always fun to hear. :D

Also, I’m curious about some peoples’ opinions… I’m currently attempting to read “Captivating” by John and Stasi Eldredge (John wrote “Wild At Heart”) and then I’m gonna try and break into “The Screwtape Letters” by C.S. Lewis. Do any of you readers wanna share your thoughts on these two books? I’ve heard a great deal about them, but I’d just like to here what some of you think. :]

Love you guys and I’m so sorry I’ve neglected this blog for so long. I’ll honestly try to keep it better fed this time around. :P

-Bee-

It’s Been a While…

To the dear readers of my blog… I’m terribly sorry I have been slacking on my writing. I have been told I should write something and I never got around to doing that, but last night I was at a party of sorts for Halloween with my U100 class at the instructor’s house and my friend told me to blog about it. So I’m going to… There probably won’t be any profound spiritual message in this blog, I’m just giving a little update on how I’m doing here in Abilene.

Actually, class is about to get out so I’ll resume this in about 15 minutes…….

So, my group carved Batman into the pumpkin. It was pretty legit, not gonna lie. :] I thought it was really cool because one group made the Joker so we took a picture of the two pumpkins next to each other. :P

I really like Halloween, it’s so much fun. I know the origin and the menaing behind to holiday goes against the things I believe, but I love dressing up and giving candy to people. And yes, I will be trick-or-treating this weekend. :D

So, tonight, Treadaway Kids are coming to trick-or-treat through Gardner and I’m way excited. I’ve never actually handed out the candy before and nobody ever comes by our house back home during Halloween. :P And then, tomorrow night there’s going to be a thing in West Lobby where there will be a bunch of Halloween activities and if you wear a costume you get free food. Too bad I couldn’t afford the constume I wanted or I would’ve gotten it.

I hope you all have a wonderful Halloween and I’ll see all you lovely people back home this weekend! :D

-Bee-

(It’s kinda hard to see Batman, but he’s there. The videos aren’t the type of video that WordPress or Windows Movie Maker will accept so when I figure out how to put them all together, I’ll post them.)

Remember Your Creator

I really wanted to blog today, but I didn’t wanna do the standard “About Me” post, I wanted to write a churchy post, I haven’t done that in a while and I think now is a good time to do so. I grabbed my Bible and as I was walking back to my desk I said, “I wonder what God’s gonna show me today.” Many of you who know me, know that the whole “open-the-Bible-and-find-a-great-verse” thing doesn’t really work for me. So, God, with his brilliant sense of humor, opened the pages to Ezekiel 39, in which it talks about God causing the nations to fall, etc. Then I tried it again and my pages fell open to Ecclesiastes 12:1.

“Remember your Creator
in the days of your youth,
before the days of trouble come
and the years approach when you will say,
‘I find no pleasure in them’” (NIV)

You can read the rest of the chapter for yourself, but this is the part I wanted to point out…

Lately, even though I’m on a very Christian campus around some very amazing, Godly people, I just haven’t been feeling too faithful to my religion. I keep questioning it and I keep telling myself how much easier it would be to just not be a Christian. I wouldn’t have to worry about making mistakes, I wouldn’t have to worry about if there’s really a Heaven or not, I wouldn’t have to worry about who are the people I should be surrounding myself with, I wouldn’t have to worry about if I’m a disappointment to my Father (and I don’t mean my Dad back home), I wouldn’t have to worry about being a bad example to someone else, I wouldn’t have to worry about a lot of things… I don’t know what to do about this immense loneliness I feel even though I’m supposed to be immersed in God’s love here. And lately I’ve been thinking about how much I miss my home church and how much I miss having a boyfriend, don’t mistake that for missing Daniel as a boyfriend I love him like a best friend, but our relationship as boyfriend and girlfriend took too many turns down the wrong street. I miss not having a guy to reassure me when I’m down, I miss being able to cuddle in someone’s arms when I’ve had a bad day, I miss hqaving someone call me and tell goodnight every day before I go to bed, and I’ve begun to realize how much it hurts. I’ve also started worrying about what guys think of me here, I haven’t had to deal with crushes for over 3 years now, I really don’t like it that much after all.

But then today, in my U100 (University Seminar) class, my professor said in his devo today that everyone’s gonna feel that loneliness, it doesn’t matter when they’ll feel it, but they will. And they said if you “trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding” it’ll work out. God knows us better than we know ourselves, he created us. And I know that, but lately I just haven’t felt it. My thoughts just keep running through my head over and over and I don’t know what to do to stop them.

So this verse kind of helped me, but I still don’t know what to do… I remember God and I know who He is and what He’s done for me, but I just don’t feel like I’m a Christian right now. Somebody wanna help a sister out??

Well, I hope everyone else is having a better week than I am. I love you ALL, thanks for reading. :] Toodles!

-Bee-

(PS) I’m writing a story for this Friday’s issue of the Optimist, if you go to ACU you should check it out, if you don’t, I’ll post the link to the website when the story’s up. :]

Think On This…

Ya learn something new everyday, especially in Bible class. Think on this…

“Romeo, Romeo, wherefore art thou Romeo?” Hmm, apparently “wherefore” doesn’t mean “where”, it means “why”… Who’da thunk it??

Hope you’re having a wonderful week. Toodles!

-Bee-