I just wanted to let everyone know that I’m going to be at camp for the next 2 weeks. I leave for Urban Experience on Monday and I’ll only have a day off before I leave for Kadesh next Sunday, so I won’t be able to post any new blogs or comment on any of yours until the 19th or so. But if you do post before then, I’ll try my hardest to catch up on all my posts when I get back! Leave me some love?? :] Toodles!
-Bee-
Today is Father’s Day… YAY! It’s a widely known fact that I’m a Daddy’s Girl. If you take a minute to look through the other posts on this blog, you’ll be able to see that easily. I dunno what it is, but my dad and I connect at a different level than my mom and I do. For the majority of my almost 18 years of living, my mom and I were the real-life replica of Freaky Friday. If you haven’t seen then movie, allow me to explain… My mom and I were at each other’s throats all the time. Two extremely hormonal women in one household isn’t good, especially when one is going through puberty and an attitude adjustment for the worst and the other won’t put up with the little teenager who thinks she owns the world. Yup, that sounds about right…
It’s really weird, but my dad and I talk about stuff that most people would feel extremely awkward talking to their dads about. Just the other night we had a conversation about periods. That’s the most awkward thing for me to talk about with my mom and I don’t even know why. Not that I don’t love my mom, but we just don’t sit at the same level of thinking as my dad and I do. Anyone that knows my dad can tell that he’s a kid in a grown-up body.
Maybe that’s it… Maybe we connect better because I can be immature around him. Haha, I really have no clue. I mean, we do things together to annoy my mom. For instance, we’ll be eating dinner all together at the table and my dad and I will start sticking our food out at each other behind my mom’s back. Then she ends up catching one of us in the act. I’m not gonna lie, it’s extremely funny. She’s just so easy to annoy, but she knows she loves us anyway.
Yesterday my mom and I were buying cards for my dad and I would pick up one card and go, “too cheesy” and I would pick up another and go, “not cheesy enough”… there’s something about my dad and I and being “right-in-the-middle” cheesy. We’re the type of cheesy when you send your significant other a Crush soda to say you love them. See?? It’s cheesy, but it’s not delectably cheesy. Too much cheese will make you constipated after all. But not enough is boring and bland.
Haha, in other words, for the people who don’t get this… I <3 my dad. :] Have a wonderful Father’s Day everybody. Toodles!
-Bee-
Saturday morning I had the wonderful pleasure of walking across the stage to receive my High School diploma! :]
Then we went to the IRL race at Texas Motor Speedway, where we saw Kaptain Robbie Knievel jump over 21 Hummers and rooted for Danica, but sadly she didn’t win!
Then, when I got home, I jumped on MySpace… To discover that my FanSpace for A Letter To You (see the post I made last week about them) had been hacked. -_- What a lame-o!
So, sorry for the lack of postage, I was dealing with creating a new FanSpace and now I have to add almost 2000 people to the new FanSpace and then send this thing called a “salute” to MySpace. A “salute” is a picture of me holding a sign that has the complete URL and friend ID for the MySpace that has been compromised. Then they delete it! Just like that, all 5 months of building it up, just to start over again from scratch. Oh well, at least she didn’t get our personal information. (I have two other people that run the FanSpace with me, so we’re all pretty upset that this happened.)
Expect more posts soon! :] Have a wonderful week, toodles!
-Bee-
I was doing so well at keeping a regular quiet time with God and blogging for the past two weeks, but now I’m slacking off and retreating to my old habits. Lots of stuff has been happening lately and it’s just messing me up and now that I’m sick it’s making me even worse… I will try to post later this weekend for the people that look forward to my REAL posts.
While you’re waiting for my post, go check out my Blog Roll, a lot of those blogs are TOTALLY awesome. Personal faves are The Blazing Center, Forthright Fixation, Postcards From The Edge, Lynn’s Life, and Agent Tim Online. And if you’re parents of teenagers, check out The Rebelution, I’m not going to explain it, you have to go find out for yourself. :P Toodles!
-Bee-
(PS) I saw Prince Caspian tonight!!! It was incredible!
…not enough time to do it! I’m so sorry I didn’t post yesterday! I keep doing that lately and it’s bothering me a lot. I love blogging and I wish I could do it more efficiently, but sometimes I just have so many things going on. I have 2 and a half weeks left of high school and they’re starting to get hectic! This isn’t a real post today, just a filler to let you guys know what’s going on and a future explanation of why I may not post sometimes. So sorry. I love you all dearly though, thanks for reading this! :] Toodles!
-Bee-
Ahh, what a lovely (yet hard) virtue. So, my church does this thing once a month called Revolve and it’s our way of showing the families with kids in our congregation how to enforce the virtues that are expressed in the Bible today.
Last week was the most recent Revolve and it was about patience. The skit this time around had to do with a game of Jenga and learning how to be patient enough to win the game and keep the tower from falling over. Another skit had to do with slowing down when you’re reading your Bible and taking the time to understand what the people did and why.
After each of the Revolves, Kaley, Daniel, and I hand out the “thing” that is supposed to help the kids remember the virtue. Well, the “thing” was candy (AKA the Bit-Of-Patience Bar) and the kids had to wait a week before eating the candy. I picked out a packet of Starbursts (Mmmmm)! Now, if you know me at all, from YouTube, from MySpace, from real life, whatever, you know that I am EXTREMELY impatient.
I am proud to say that I have not eaten my Starbursts yet. It was extremely hard, but I’m really glad that I actually did it. :]
Okay, so I know this post was pointless, but I have a dance recital at 5 and I can’t think of anything to write about, so I decided I’d let you guys know a little bit more about me! Toodles!
-Bee-
Oh, and I’d like to show you the beautiful state I live in; Texas!!! :] (This is just in my front yard.)
This next one is one of my all time fave pics!
Location: Tyler State Park
Okay, so I know that back in my first post I said I was going to write everyday I didn’t post a vlog… Well, obviously I haven’t been doing that, but I’m going to actually do it this time. I have realized lately that blogging really helps me understand what’s going on in my life, whether people are reading it or not doesn’t matter to me. :P
Disclaimer: If I happen to offend someone by what I post here, oh well. You decided to read it, so it’s your prerogative. Don’t leave nasty comments about what I post when I clearly state RIGHT HERE that I don’t want them nor do I care if I get them. Thank you.
So, in EXACTLY 5 weeks will be my last day of high school. I am beyond excited! I got my tentative fall schedule in the mail today, so it’s all finally setting in with me. This Sunday is Senior Sunday at my church where the graduating Seniors are honored and then we have a ceremony Sunday night. My best friend and boyfriend are writing my farewell letter and Kaley already told me she’s gonna cry. Aww, man, I hate crying. =/ BUT I can’t lie and say I’m not excited. I’ve been dreaming about this day since I was in 7th grade and entered the Youth Group for the first time. :] Then last year I was a Junior and planned the Senior Banquet and now the Juniors are planning MINE! Man, is that scary or what?? I’m pretty sure my mom’s gonna cry, too. Oh, and did I mention that all 5 billion members of my family will be there Sunday morning?? *sheesh*
Let’s count them off, shall we?? Nvm, maybe we won’t because I’m not even sure who all is coming… Is that bad?? :P Ah well, all I know is that it’s a lot and I just can’t wait.
Sorry if I jump around a lot in this post, I need to get back into the blogging mode, haha. So I LOVE thunderstorms, it’s fantastic. When we were pulling out of the church parking lot tonight there were a bunch of lightning strikes all over the sky and then a HUGE one came down and struck down somewhere a few miles away. It was SOOOO cool. Man, I wish I’d had my camera. What a GREAT way to capture God’s amazing (yet beautiful) power.
Tomorrow’s gonna be a GREAT day, I can just feel it. :] It’s the 2 year and 8 month anniversary with the boyfriend, I get to write all over his car windows and ask him to Prom (don’t tell him, it’s a secret), and then we MIGHT get to go to Bible Study. I’m not sure though because my Nana has something to go to at 6:30 and that’s usually when we leave, so maybe Mom can take us?? I sure hope so!
I hope I can make a vlog sometime soon. All my YouTube viewers, be on the lookout, something is coming soon. If it’s not a vlog, then it’ll be the vid of my dance recital on May 7th.
OH! Prom is next weekend, too, I’m pumped about that. :] I’ll give more info on that later. Love you guys to DEATH. Toodles!
-Bee-
…about what I’m supposed to do.
I am beyond confused about where my life is taking me and what I’m going to do with it. After getting off the phone with Daniel, I realized that I just need a break. I’m not talking about a break from school or anything like that… I need a break from life, where I can just escape into the peaceful beauty of the world God created.
I am constantly living in fear, it’s not as bad as it was last year, but what’s the difference?? It’s still there, the level of intensity doesn’t change that fact. After briefly pointing all this out to a friend in my Math class, I realized something else. I’m very naive and stupid. (Isn’t it great that I’m FINALLY realizing this now??)
Also, I’m in the midst of writing my last story for the high school paper and the teacher even said my story sounded whiny. If you read my last blog, that’s what I wrote about, except in detail… Maybe I’ll post it?? I prolly should, so I can read it again someday and see how far I’ve come. I’m not gonna lie though, I sound very similar to a spoiled brat who didn’t get what she wanted for high school. Ah well, what’s new??
Again, I need a break… Point blank. Toodles and sweet dreams everyone.
-Bee-
…until Graduation! Wow, it’s hard to believe. The past 4 years flew by so quickly. I’m happy about school begin over, that’s for sure. I’m not going to lie, I’m prolly never gonna see or talk to the majority of the people from either of my high schools again in my life. One person I used to call my best friend doesn’t talk to me barely at all, I have to initiate a conversation with her… I love her to death, but it’s too hard to just give and give and give to this friendship we have/had and get nothing in return. I may continue to keep in contact with a few select peeps from Naaman and Berkner, but that’s about it… And I’m perfectly fine with that!
People say that high school if supposed to be the best four years of your life… Umm, who decided that and why didn’t it happen to me?? Some of my lowest points, worst moments, and biggest mistakes have been within the time constraints of high school. From petty girl drama and losing best friends, to dating mega-huge jerks and crushing on too many… I won’t miss it, I won’t want it back, and it won’t hurt once it’s gone. Because the things I cherish the most, I already had before that and I’ll continue to have later on.
My real friendships, the people I’ve made a real impact on and vice versa, lie inside a screen surrounded by plastic on four sides and wires sticking out the back… The computer has been my way of life these past four years, without it, I may not have survived. I wouldn’t have really met my bofyriend without it, I wouldn’t know anyone from YouTube, and I wouldn’t know anyone from JoBrosPone. It’s amazing to think how a simple object such as the computer can truly change your life.
So this is where I should insert a thank you… To everyone that stood beside me during these four years of nonsense. I love you all, whether I’ve met you personally or over the computer, it doesn’t matter… You’re all a part of my life, and I couldn’t live without you guys! And I’m excited to start college, too. Toodles!
-Bee-
