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That’s right, there’s so much going on with me right now…

Last Tuesday we found out my best friend’s mom does indeed have cancer, she’ll be having surgery on Monday, so keep that in your prayers.

I’ll be out of town this weekend, I’m going down to Austin to visit my big bro before I leave for college next month. I will also be hanging out with one of my YouTube buddies while I’m there again and on the way back on Sunday I’m supposed to be stopping by Maypearl to visit my Kadesh group leaders. :] Keep our traveling in your prayers.

And last, but I guess not least, I broke up with Daniel a few hours ago. We both seem to be fine right now, but I just ask you all to pray that God will fill any voids we may feel right now, especially since I’m leaving for college in less than a month now. (For those that don’t know, August 24th would’ve been our 3 year anniversary.)

Oh, and happy birthday, Lynn! :D Check out her blog, it’s in my blog roll to the RIGHT! –> I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend. Toodles!

-Bee-

(PS) I remembered another prayer request! I applied for the ACU Helpline Representative position today, I just want you all to pray that I get the job, it’ll be my first job ever and I have to have a job since it’s part of my financial aid…

I have a major request and I personally don’t care if the family doesn’t want this mentioned but I think prayers are vital in this situation…

My best friend’s mom, basically my 2nd mom, found out yesterday that she has a 95% chance of having cancer or Lupus. She’s getting a biopsy on Monday to determine if she really does or not. It’s really scary and they’re a really big family with a kid in college and two heading there in the next few years so I just pray that if something does happen, that they’ll still be able to make ends meet and such. I’m trying to think positive but I have so much past experience with cancer and it’s never been good, so I just hope that God will take care of everything. The other thing is that my best friend and I (as well as her younger sister) will all be at Kadesh this week so we won’t know anything until we get home or if their mom calls to let us know.

So, please just keep that in your prayers because we have no idea what else to do but pray! Also, pray that the group of friends I’m going to Kadesh with get to Abilene safely. Have a wonderful week and I’ll catch up on all the new blog posts when I get back on Saturday! Toodles!

-Bee-

…when you’re scared for your life?? I don’t really want to exlpain why, but can someone (anyone) just tell me what I can do, besides praying, when I’m more scared that I’ve ever been in my entire life. Thanks??

Toodles!

-Bee-

So lately I’ve been reading quite a few blogs that have rewritten versions of scripture and I kinda wanna try that out. All the ones I’ve read have been really cool and they’ve made the stories that’ve been told many times before have more meaning.

“Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of Heaven.
Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.
Blessed are the meek, for they will inherit the earth.
Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be filled.
Blessed are the merciful, for they will be shown mercy.
Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God.
Blessed are the peacemakers, for they will be called children of God.
Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness, for theirs is the kingdom of Heaven.

Blessed are you when people insult you, persecute you, and falsely say all kinds of evil against you because of me. Rejoice and be glad, because great is your reward in Heaven, for in the same way they persecuted the prophets who were before you.”  Matthew 5:3-12 (TNIV)

Lord, be with me when my spirit is weak and dwindling, show me that I will be a part of your kindgom.
Lord, be with me when I mourn, lay your comforting hands upon me so that I may understand your will.
Lord, be with me when I feel the need to submit to others, reassure me that the earth will be mine.
Lord, be with me when I am striving for righteousness, fill me with your love and grace.
Lord, be with me when I show others mercy, show me mercy when I don’t know how.
Lord, be with me when my heart is not heavy with sin, show yourself to me when it is.
Lord, be with me when I bring peace to those around me, hold me in your arms and tell me I am your child.
Lord, be with me when I am insulted because of my faith, show me that I will be part of your kingdom.

Lord, be with me when people try to tear me down, when they try to unravel my faith, and when they tell me lies that only Satan would dish out because of my belief in you. Teach me how to be joyful no matter what the outcome and no matter who is persecuting me. Remind me that things of this world do not matter, that the reward I shall receive is eternal life in Heaven with you. Show me that I can learn from the ways that others have lived with ridicule and punishment for recognizing that they are your children. Amen.

Hmm, I guess I’ll leave it up to you guys to decide if you like it. I have a terrible cold and have been losing my voice since Sunday. If you could pray for me, that I will get better very soon, that would be marvelous. :] I feel fine, but it’s just annoying because there’s nothing I can do about it… Toodles!

-Bee-

I know it’s late and technically Tuesday (CST) now, so I’ll make this my post for yesterday and today. I have an application on Facebook called Xtreme Bible Study and there’s a new Bible Study posted everyday. The one posted today really spoke to me and I just felt I needed to post it. Some quick background info though…

So, if you’ve actually read all my posts or know me in real life, you’ll know that a month ago I went on a Ladies’ Silent Retreat with the women from my church. Well, the verse that is the theme of today’s Bible Study was also in the blue notebook they gave us. It was so weird because the version in the notebook was from the Message and so was the verse from today’s Bible Study! It was just really neat to see something that God placed in front of me so that I could remember and stay accountable to what I experienced last month.

” “Are you tired? Worn out? Burned out on religion? Come to me. Get away with me and you’ll recover your life. I’ll show you how to take a real rest. Walk with me and work with me–watch how I do it. Learn the unforced rhythms of grace. I won’t lay anything heavy or ill-fitting on you. Keep company with me and you’ll learn to live freely and lightly.”  Matthew 11:28-30 (MSG)

Perhaps you are like me and have begun to hate religion. Maybe that feeling has made you feel weird in the past but good news, God is burned out on religion as well. God wants to have a REAL relationship with you. It doesn’t matter what church you go to or if you speak by using the King James language. Example: O how I hope thou will enjoyest the Bible Study I have written for thee. Ok, nothing spiritual about that. God wants you to be real with him and to enjoy a relationship that is deep! God says if you’ll just spend time with me you’ll recover your life. How cool is that? God will give you rest, grace, nothing will be too heavy for you. The last part of the verse says, if you’ll hang with him, he’ll teach you how to live freely and lightly. This has to be one of my favorite verses in the Bible. Print this verse out and place it in your text book or on your computer so you can be reminded of what God really wants to give you. Dump religion and begin a relationship that will enable you to enjoy the rest of your life!”

Reading this little Bible Study along with that verse, made me remember what one of the ladies shared. She focused on the part of the verse that talked about the “unforced rhythms of grace”. She used that as an analogy to describe how we all live to a forced rhythm or schedule. And something she realized while we were out in the middle of nowhere at a beautiful encampment was that God shows us his unforced rhythms of grace through nature.

She talked about the way the river’s flow would sometimes be rushed, but other times it would seem still. She talked about the wind’s cool breeze as well as the stillness of the air. As long as we take the time to see what God puts right in front of us, we can “live freely and lightly” as he wants us to.

Now, onto why I didn’t get to post yesterday… At 12:30 AM yesterday I started to feel quite nauseous and didn’t get to bed until about 3 AM because I would have these panic spurts. I would be on the brink of sleep and then my heart would start to race, my breathing would get out of conrtol, my body would start shivering even though I felt warm, and my stomach felt like it was gonna hurl itself out of my body via my mouth… It was just awful! I took some knock off brand Pepto Bismol at like 1 AM, but it didn’t last very long.

I laid in bed praying the whole time that God would place a hedge of protection around my body and would get rid of whatever was attacking me. I prayed that he would calm my body down and relieve my mind of it’s worries and fears. I prayed that he would just put me to sleep so that I didn’t have to feel the anxiety or the nerves. I prayed this over and over again and always when I thought I was feeling better, a panic spurt would hit me.

So, when I woke up to get ready for school I did everything really slow so as to not upset my stomach again. I was feeling better, but I was still kinda queasy. I made it through all 5 of my classes and when I got home, I read some of my new book and decided to take a nap. That nap did me a whole lot of good!

I think my body was finally reacting to my abnormal eating and sleeping habits lately and just started to rebel on me. This happened back in January, but I threw up 7 times in one day, so just pray that nothing like this happens again, or at least until school is out because I can’t miss anymore days if I want to exempt my Economics final. =/

Ugh, sorry if that just felt like one big whine fest… Anyone got some cheese?? Ah well, I’ll post more on Wednesday! Toodles!

-Bee-

Okay, so there’s a lot of crazy stuff going on with my family right now. We really need some prayers!

So, my grandma (mom’s side) was put in the hospital yesterday because she has been confused lately. Like, she’ll go into a room and then just stand there, then my grandad would ask her what she was doing and she’d say she didn’t know, so he’d ask why she went into the room and again she’d say she didn’t know. Whenever my granddad suggested telling my mom about it, she would get really upset with him and object to telling my mom.

Well, now she’s in the hospital and had to get an MRI done. She has ephysema and asthma which have caused her lungs to deterierate to the point that it’s irrepairable. So, they’re going to put her on an oxygen tank and see how that does. The reason she has been so confused lately was because of the lack of oxygen to her brain. Everything is fine in her brain though, just the lack of oxygen. She shouldn’t be out of the hospital for a few more days, but if she gets out by the weekend, my mom’s going to go and stay with her parents for a bit to help the adjust to my grandma living with the oxygen tank. But we’re still nervous about what else could be happening because she also has glaucoma which is gradually getting worse, I believe. Just keep her in your prayers because we lost my aunt (mom’s sister) in November of 2006 and it’s been a tough recovery from that.

Also, on that note, my uncle (the aunt’s husband) called earlier to tell my mom that the house (and everything left of my aunt, including their 3 dogs) was burnt to the ground. My uncle also lost his truck. Thankfully nobody was home, but sadly that’s why everything perished in the fire. All they have left of my aunt in her wedding ring and another ring that she gave my cousin before she passed away. Just pray that they can recover from that because I dunno what I’d do if a fire happened at my house and so I can’t imagine everything that was left of my significant other burn like that. It’s such a sad, scary thought.

And I have one more! My mom’s having surgery on May 19. I would explain why, but it’s prolly not something she wants me sharing with the entire internet… Just pray that it goes well and she makes a speedy recovery. :]

Thank you so much for doing this, our family erally needs it right now. And since I’m going off to college in a little over 3 months, it’s gonna be really tough on everyone because I’m the last kid outta the house and my mom says I’m the comic relief of the family. (See the post from April 27, 2008) Well, I love you all. Toodles!

-Bee-