That’s right, there’s so much going on with me right now…

Last Tuesday we found out my best friend’s mom does indeed have cancer, she’ll be having surgery on Monday, so keep that in your prayers.

I’ll be out of town this weekend, I’m going down to Austin to visit my big bro before I leave for college next month. I will also be hanging out with one of my YouTube buddies while I’m there again and on the way back on Sunday I’m supposed to be stopping by Maypearl to visit my Kadesh group leaders. :] Keep our traveling in your prayers.

And last, but I guess not least, I broke up with Daniel a few hours ago. We both seem to be fine right now, but I just ask you all to pray that God will fill any voids we may feel right now, especially since I’m leaving for college in less than a month now. (For those that don’t know, August 24th would’ve been our 3 year anniversary.)

Oh, and happy birthday, Lynn! :D Check out her blog, it’s in my blog roll to the RIGHT! –> I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend. Toodles!

-Bee-

(PS) I remembered another prayer request! I applied for the ACU Helpline Representative position today, I just want you all to pray that I get the job, it’ll be my first job ever and I have to have a job since it’s part of my financial aid…

I have a major request and I personally don’t care if the family doesn’t want this mentioned but I think prayers are vital in this situation…

My best friend’s mom, basically my 2nd mom, found out yesterday that she has a 95% chance of having cancer or Lupus. She’s getting a biopsy on Monday to determine if she really does or not. It’s really scary and they’re a really big family with a kid in college and two heading there in the next few years so I just pray that if something does happen, that they’ll still be able to make ends meet and such. I’m trying to think positive but I have so much past experience with cancer and it’s never been good, so I just hope that God will take care of everything. The other thing is that my best friend and I (as well as her younger sister) will all be at Kadesh this week so we won’t know anything until we get home or if their mom calls to let us know.

So, please just keep that in your prayers because we have no idea what else to do but pray! Also, pray that the group of friends I’m going to Kadesh with get to Abilene safely. Have a wonderful week and I’ll catch up on all the new blog posts when I get back on Saturday! Toodles!

-Bee-

I just wanted to let everyone know that I’m going to be at camp for the next 2 weeks. I leave for Urban Experience on Monday and I’ll only have a day off before I leave for Kadesh next Sunday, so I won’t be able to post any new blogs or comment on any of yours until the 19th or so. But if you do post before then, I’ll try my hardest to catch up on all my posts when I get back! Leave me some love?? :] Toodles!

-Bee-

I’ve mentioned before that I write for an online magazine called Portrait Magazine. You should check out the July issue, I wrote the Mary-Kate Olsen story and the current MySpace Act of the Week column that’s on the right side of the homepage. :D

http://www.portraitmagazine.net

Enjoy! Toodles!

-Bee-

I wrote my first song today. It took be about 45 minutes, but I did it. And I actually really like it. I even have the notes for the right hand on the keyboard to go with the lyrics, as well. I’m so excited about this because I’m awful at rhyming (and I don’t like songs that don’t rhyme very much) and I just can’t ever complete any songs. I think I did well. I’ll post the lyrics and you guys can tell me what you think, okay?? The title is “Gonna Give It Up To You”!

What do I do
When I’ve fallen away from you
Can you show me
How my life should be

(Chorus)
I can’t eat, I can’t sleep,
My mind is running to its own beat.
My heart keeps breaking
With every step I’m taking

Everything is getting in the way
Of what I should be doing everyday
Can you bring me back to the place
Where I first saw your face

(Chorus)
I can’t eat, I can’t sleep,
My mind is running to its own beat.
My heart keeps breaking
With every step I’m taking

(Bridge)
Now I’m gonna give it up to you
I don’t want this burden so tell me what to do

And as I bow my head
I know You have risen from the dead
Only you can save me from my sin
Now I know where to begin

(Chorus)
I can’t eat, I can’t sleep,
My mind is fueling a brand new heat.
My heart keeps beating
Because we’re finally meeting

I said my heart keeps beating
Because we’re finally meeting

Story behind the song: So tonight at Girls’ Bible Study after Monday Madness with the REYG, I basically cried and spilled my guts for half an hour to everyone that came. By the end of Bible Study, a few people were really frustrated about a question that had come up and the frustration was spreading to other people, as well. Afterward, we went of to a member of the REYG’s house to watch a movie and have a fun dance party with everyone that went to Monday Madness.

We didn’t watch a movie, we didn’t have a dance party… A lot of stuff happened that got even more people frustrated and upset. And after we were told to leave an hour early because it just wasn’t a good night, I sat on one of the stairs in front of the house and just cried for 10 minutes before someone came over to talk to me and noticed that I was crying. So, I spilled my guts some more and started crying even more. Because of this, I left feeling frustrated and it just wasn’t a good night. And when I got home, I was trying to figure out what I could do that would calm me down and just get me to realize that God was still there whether I could feel him over my emotions or not. So, I started playing my keyboard and ended up writing this song.

I hope whoever’s reading this liked it and that someone benefits from it. It’s not extremely long, but I think it gets my point across and I think there are a lot of people who need to hear what the song had to say.

Whether you know me or not, if you ever want someone who will listen and try her hardest to help you with anything, just send me a little thing in the comments asking for help because I don’t think anyone should have to suffer alone. It’s the worst feeling and I wouldn’t want anyone else to have to feel that.

I love everyone that’s reading this. :] Toodles!

-Bee-

(PS) I have 9 ant bites on my feet, pray that they stop itching?? =/

As of Saturday, June 28, 2008, I’m a new Rebelutionary. I’m in the process of editing and posting a vid from the conference. I’ll prolly upload it tomorrow, but while you’re waiting. Think on this…

“The ceiling of our expectations is where the floor of our expectations ought to be.”

That needs no explanation, but are you going to do something about it?? Do Hard Things! :D Have a wonderful rest of your weekend. Toodles!

-Bee-

And I’m sure I’m not the only one who thinks this. So, if you’re already a reader of my blog, you read last week about my passion for wanting to write a book and how I was amazed that God was showing me my talents for His kingdom. You also know that I had Passport (freshman orientation) Sunday through Tuesday for ACU. Well, I found out at check in that I had over $17,000 in scholarships, I had no idea!

There was a mix up in the admissions office back in May with another Brittany Vaughn wanting to cancel her application and they accidentally canceled mine. Well, I got it all fixed and my application was reinstated, but the program they use for financial services doesn’t accept anymore info on a student after they cancel their application, even reinstatement. So, when we strolled up to the table to ask about the status of my FAFSA, they said they had a bunch of money listed for me, but I was no longer planning on going to ACU. So, we explained the situation and the lady was so nice and got me back on track and handed us a list of all my scholarships and such. She said my award letters would be sent in the mail in a week or two!

Here’s what I got:

According to my FAFSA, my family is only expected to be able to contribute $1,516 for college. So, that left $28,984 to get scholarships and such for. Come to find out, I had an ACU Grant for Journalism that was $6,960, a Subsidized Stafford Loan (which means I may not have to pay it back) that was $3,500, a Federal Pell Grant that was $3,181, and my LTC Scholarship I won which was $1,000! Total that up and it equals $17,181. Now all we need to get loans for is $11,843. How incredible is that??

Please don’t mistake this as me bragging, I’m just trying to show how absolutely, ridiculously amazing God truly is. I didn’t think I was getting any money except for my $1,000 LTC Scholarship, but I got so much mroe than that. It’s always at that moment when you’re sure there’s nothing you can do now and you’re just done trying to do it yourself that God pops up out of no where and shows you how dumb you were for trying in the first place. He’s the only one that can make things happen, we can’t try to make things happen faster or slower, we can’t try to do them ourselves, we just have to turn all our worries and problems over to God. We have to trust that He’ll take care of us. And by golly, if this isn’t a testament of how God really does show up when you need Him the most, then I dunno what is!

Thank you so much, Lord. It is so fascinating to see how much patience and love you hold for you children that you will wait for us to finally hand it over to you. I am so glad I have chosen your path because nothing else can satisfy me. There’s no way I can deny that now. Not before myself, not before my family, not before my friends, not before anybody reading this, and not before God either! I pray that I can hold onto the strong hunger for Christ because I know I need it and I know that I can never satisfy that hunger unless God is dwelling inside of me where he belongs.

I hope everyone has a wonderful Thursday! Toodles!

-Bee-

Here’s something for everyone to watch while I’m away at Passport until Tuesday. Think on this…

Lyrics to the vid:

Dear God
I hate to be a bother, but I gotta say
This world is getting crazier with every day
I hope You’ll hear me out now as I stop and pray

Dear God
People take Your words and try to twist ‘em round
I know You can’t be happy with what’s goin’ down
I’m searchin’ for some answers, but they can’t be found
Can You help me out, dear God

Dear God,
Just the other night I heard somebody say
What’s the use believin’ in You anyway
I guess it was just heartache talkin’ through the pain
It’s a cryin’ shame

Dear God,
I know You’re disappointed in the things we’ve done
Can’t they see the truth that they’re all running from
Try to preach Your message with a loaded gun
What they thinkin’ of, Dear God

Everybody’s searching for an easy solution
They can’t see beyond, the selfish world they’re living in
Your words of love get lost, in all the confusion
But I still believe, someday You’re gonna speak to me

Dear God,
I know You’ve got a million other calls to take
You’re dealing with a lot of things that just won’t wait
But there is one request that I just gotta make

Dear God
Won’t You send a sign down, just to ease my doubt
I’m trying to hear You, but the silence is so loud
I think I see a rainbow from behind the clouds
And I hear You now, dear God

Video is Nicholas Jonas singing “Dear God” At The 51st General Council, 2005
August 2-5, 2005 - Denver, CO
SONG WRITTEN BY: Evan Rogers and Carl Sturken

I hope that song spoke to you as much as it did me. Toodles!

-Bee-

That’s the working title of my book! I just started it, tell me what you think of the title. I like it a lot and I think it fits the summary perfectly. And if you have any ideas for someone you’d like to see in the book, send me an email at bmv07a@acu.edu and I’ll take a look. If I like it, I’ll contact you or the person you’re recommending and see what I can do. Thanks for the support, pray that I can make this work.

BTW, Camp Rock was amazing!!! I prolly won’t be posting anymore until next Tuesday or Wednesday because I have Passort (freshman orientation) Sunday through Tuesday! I’m so excited. Toodles!

-Bee-

The title for today’s blog is something that is commonly said at a church camp I attend called Kadesh and at my church. and it’s so incredible how true that is.

Yesterday my mom came home from work going crazy over something. Come ot find out, she got to have lunch with Jeff Crilley, a news anchor here in Dallas who retired last week. She told me about the new PR business he opened that offers free help for aspiring journalists/news anchors. If any of you know me at all, you know that my dream is to be a professional Christian Journalist! If my last post doesn’t tell you that, you should check your eyes. :P

For the past year I’ve really wanted to write a book similar to DC Talk’s “Jesus Freaks” that was about missionaries in the world today. Well, turns out, they beat me to it because not only do they have the first volume of “Jesus Freaks” about Martyrs, but they also have the second volume of “Jesus Freaks” about Revolutionaries (mega-missionaries)! And when my mom came home, she gave me this book that doesn’t look anything like a book. It’s actually computer paper bound together with a transparency as the cover. It’s called “Kidpreneur: Genius Ways For Kids To Pay Their Way Through College” and it’s written by Jeff Crilley’s 15-year-old son, Dallas Crilley. The book has quite a few stories of kids that made their dreams of becoming entrepeneurs a reality. The stories in the book are incredible and some of the people showcased are very well-known. It got me thinking about how I could make my dream a reality.

I don’t have to wait until I get a degree from ACU to start working toward my dream. I can start looking for internships and I can start brainstorming what I want to write about for the book. I’ve got so many ideas and I know God will be pleased with whatever I choose because he’s giving me so many options. One struck me yesterday that I feel very passionate about doing. I want to make a book just like the one Dallas made, but have it be about young Christians making a difference in today’s falling society. What do ya think??

Gimme some feedback, let me know if you’d buy the book and what you’d like to possibly see in it. Have a wonderful weekend and make sure to watch Disney Channel tonight because the premiere of the Jonas Brothers’ first movie Camp Rock is at 8/7C! Toodles!

-Bee-

(PS) Jeff Crilly signed the inside of the book and said, “Brittany, here’s to your first Million”! How cool is that??